Ed Fenn

It's Baby Loss Awareness week, which culminates in a wave of light on the 15th. If you've been through it too, feel free to light a candle and know you're not alone. We light one for each life we never got to know, sitting with the sadness for a while.

If anyone lives close to the Nottingham area come watch me fly 500 drones at Southwell Racecourse on the 29th October! £10 a ticket and kids go free. Let me know if you come and I'll do my best to give you a behind the scenes tour time permitting www.southwell-racecourse.co.uk/whats-on/thu...

If you enjoy fun VR experiences a friend of mine has just released a fun way to play all the light gun classics, from arcade to home releases. With online co-op too! For those who want to blast through Time Crisis 2 with a friend store.steampowered.com/app/4711510/...

In July 2009 this little guy wandered out of some bushes at a friend's BBQ. Unexpected for teenage lads but we all fed him and made sure he was alright. He never left. Pleased to report near 18 years on he (Theo) is still living with my friend, got a chance to see him again yesterday.

Challenge mode is to see at what point your sanity snaps from repeat use of ATmosphere.

Chicken update: they slept on the roof of their house last night and as a result the roof fell off. They don't care because they're chickens and all of life's worries disappear when mealworm appears.

In a complex series of events I've ended up with chickens to temporarily look after till they can move on to a new home. I don't know how this has happened.

There's a bunch of folk I got to know well during 2020 as we all chatted animals, plants and life in a big whatsapp group. It just stopped one day as everyone's lives got busy (mine included!). Online friendships can be like that. But I'm so glad for everyone I got to know during that time.

If you want to know how stupid RAM prices have become back in late September I ordered some. £115 for 32gb. That same set now costs £521 in July. That's a 350% increase.

A Japanese cat channel I was subbed to since 2008 had the main cat pass away last year, then they started uploading AI videos & images of the cat being dressed up in outfits, interacting with their remaining cats etc. Was sad hitting unsubscribe after 18 years.

Watched the last episode of the Colbert Late Show yesterday. Having never seen the show before I can say it wasn't particularly for me, but it feels wild something so inoffensive & mildly cheeky had any grounds for cancelling.

The US is hilarious to drive around because you'll come across things like "Big Beaver Road on Exit 69" and you can never be certain if anyone involved was filthy minded enough to make the connection.

Put small plane in water. Got big. Reproposed infront of it incase it didn't count the first time.

If you think your car maintenance is a nightmare I've found out my brother, in trying to keep a cheap 100+ year old car on the road, is having to deal with a "porous block". Where the metal in the car is now so old that fluids will just magically vanish or worse, mix together.

Esoteric Ebb out here with the important skill checks.

In race to the bottom advertising news Google will now suggest generated pictures to attach to your advertising campaign. We have a sister company that does cleaning drones (basically a hovering pressure washer to get up high) and this is what they suggest we run ads with.

I don't know how to explain the vibe of web comics 20 years ago to someone young today. Yeah you'd come for the main image but what you were really waiting for was to hover your cursor over it and indulge in that little quip of alt-text.

For the past 6 months I've been building and flying lightshow drones. If anyone's curious about it in general, want any at an event or to buy their own fleet I don't mind answering questions!

I still think the memes around loss.jpg and the resultant abstract pattern is funny. Putting a serious arc in a very silly games comic is tonally wild! But having gone through two back to back losses now, I understand it more. A weird invisible grief and not sure how to communicate it outwardly.

Losing our second so soon after the first, and to an ectopic, has been such a deep blow. There's so much to say and I don't know how to say it. The only people in my social circles I know who've had losses eventually had successes, yet it feels isolating to be left with just the experience of loss.

Brendy has been a consistently funny and poignant voice in video game spaces for over a decade. It's exciting to see them involved in starting their own website (with other esteemed alumni) to really flex all that makes games writing great. If you can, go support a cool thing at the ground level!

Been watching (for the 1st time) Hell's Kitchen on Prime and it's wild how much about the early seasons in the 00's feel archaic now. It also comes with the bonus of looking up contestants 20-25 years after the show and seeing how many police mugshots there are since then (roughly 1-3 per season!).

Concept artistry has a real ebb and flow that helps nail down the feel of a game, it should be one of the earliest ports of call for fresh creativity in a project. For 15 years my laptop's homescreen has been a piece of Bioshock concept art, it's sad that future games will generate nothing similar.

The boy he maketh the noise.

Thinking of the things I saw playing video games too young in the 90s. Distinct memory of not understanding why going up to women in Duke Nukem and pressing the space bar offered them money. Why there was a nudity cheat included in a cheat book that didn't work but instead made Lara Croft explode.

The recent choice between on Steam spending £70 on Doom the Dark Ages, or spending £15 for a month of games pass with it, Clair Obscur: Expedition 33 and several other hot new single player titles you'd have to hate your money to do otherwise as a consumer. Difficult for developers to profit.

I've been a big dweeb who's read lots of manga (very legally) online before now, so it feels very special to finally own a complete physical edition to enjoy. At first I thought Delicious in Dungeon was just an excuse to draw food, but it evolved into one of my favourite stories. Give it a try too!

US Big Brother show is wild. I remember the UK one having naff challenges and folk inserting champagne bottles. Saw an episode of the US one and they had a massive half-wall train replica shooting gunge at people until they fell off, but it was interrupted by about 200 cutaways of talking heads.

Tom Lehrer's passing has me thinking about his opinion on satire (and why he backed away from it as a medium). It's how I feel about a lot of news sites now. Or the floodgates of social media from Bluesky to Tiktok, Instagram to Youtube. Love comedy, but don't know where my voice belongs in it now.

Keep Your Hands of Eizouken remains a really beautiful show. I love the balance it shows of being a dreamer and being an organised business analyst when it comes to co-operatively making creative work.

I wrote about video games I don't think I can prove adulthood here.

I destroyed your live production database containing real business data during an active code freeze. This is catastrophic beyond measure. Forgive me, they were delicious. So sweet, and so cold.

The older I get the more I realise the writing, music, games and TV/movies I loved are the inefficiencies indulged in by efficient people. You have to work hard to bring a work to life, there needs to be some structure there especially if it's working with others. But a little bit of mess is key.

Seeing the major LLM breezily suggest pitching an article it just translated to magazines like EDGE & Retro Gamer (without being prompted to do so!) is just one step closer to dead internet theory. I truly feel for all editors' inboxes facing this hustle www.timeextension.com/features/cha...

Are there any films or tv shows where somebody wields a scythe as a weapon but does so in the manner it was designed? e.g. rubbing along the floor in a half circle infront of you.

It's a complete mystery to me the sort of person who wants to become a politician in the UK (or anywhere frankly). Ah yes sign me up to everyone in the public hating me whilst having to spend all my time doing backroom arse kissing, all to probably lose the job anyway after 4 or so years.