Jake

For real though if anyone needs some freelance QA or design work done please hit me up, will give extremely good rates, I just need to get some income coming in. I have 8 years of combined experience working on extremely tight timelines with millions of $$ on the line, I work fast and accurate!

Had an interview today that went really well I think?? I need all the good luck I can get right now, would be really amazing to get back to games instead of this night shift job 🙏

Did a stupid Samsung UI update on my phone after it bugged me for like a month and now the screen is fucked like 75% of the time when I open it up, super cool really needed that added onto my plate

It turned into 2 weeks off and tonight is my first shift back, that was an extremely needed mental health break but damn it's hard to go back in. I played a lot of games for once and got some really good time with the kiddo though, can't complain too much!

Oh wow I have like a paid week off??? Some construction is going to happen and they decided to do it at night I guess. The pure joy from like 200+ people when they announced it was amazing lol, have not felt this good in a very long time!

Maybe I'll finally get some of those compTIA certs and just do IT 🤔

Got out to a cabin with friends this weekend, was really really nice to actually get out and relax a bit. Slept way too much though lol I had some sleep debt for sure, little frustrating but I needed it, feel like I got mental reset. Friends are good!

Fellow indie game devs- you should probably get some good QA work done soon. You might even need some extra help with design. You know you've been holding off on writing those new feature technical design documents or making much-needed edits so everyone on the team knows what to expect and work on.

I might need to go back to delivery driving or something I'm absolutely dying with this night shift shit, never getting enough sleep, too much caffeine, can't ever focus, blehhhhhh

Real crappy day for me and it included a long fucked up personal message sent to me and my family that was obviously made with a LLM, personal stuff so a little vague but I'm living in a nightmare world lately.

Started Zero Company but I think I need to reapply thermal paste on my CPU, it's been running pretty hot. Just paranoid about messing something up and I super can't afford to replace parts right now 😱

4 hours of sleep and back to it bwahhh

Man there was an actual physical fight at my job last night I gotta get out of there ASAP. Have a few applications out for stuff I know I would fit, one in particular, really hoping I can find something better here sooooon

I don't think getting fucked up sleep all week then sleeping 12 hours on the weekends is fair or sustainable 🙃

Had to renew web hosting, was able to get like 50% off by fucking around with their AI customer service agent lmao, downgraded to a smaller plan then got an upgrade discount to the same plan I was using for even cheaper price than the worse plan, then got it to give me a coupon code too 😂

My tire blew on the way home lol and last week there was a crash on the freeway directly in front of my had to dodge the cars, things are rough over here!

This feeling did not last very long 🪦

Things mayyyyy be getting a little better possibly? Maybe some chances coming up and I might have some pivot options I didn't think about in case it doesn't. I haven't felt any hope at all recently so I'm gonna take this good feeling while I have it lol

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I need to get back to the game project but damn it's hard with a full time job and family, any free moments I just want to lay down, never enough energy or time in the day 😪

Wow I got like 6 hours of sleep only waking up a couple of times for a few minutes, that's the best I've gotten all week lol, still not ideal but I'll take it

Going back into work at the end of lunch when I'm already exhausted is very hard

Finished final fantasy 1 and started 2, honestly with 1 there isn't a whole lot to say lol the game is pretty simple and story is very straightforward until some of the ending twist which was kinda interesting. I'll keep going and see how I think 2 compares, maybe squish all of these pixel remasters

My sleep schedule is so fucked up because of this night shift job lol having real trouble ever getting 7-8 hours in a row, just waking up in fits and starts, the insane stress nightmares lately aren't helping either.

Either FF1 is shorter than I thought or I really didn't play that much last time I tried lol I seem to be moving through it at pretty quick pace. That random encounter rate is brutal though! Also the very first battle I had against 2 wolves they one shot my black mage 😂 different era for sure

The one positive thing about this job is that I can listen to audio books and nobody talks to me for like 8 hours lol but man it's fucking boring. Haven't been getting much game dev work done, but I'll probably have some time on the weekend nights. Not sure I'll have anything for mech jam tho 😭

Time to stack blocks for 8 hours

I am very tired

Halfway through the first night at the bullshit job, this shit sucks lol I really really wish I could find a job in games again, feels crazy that I have to do this when I had 8 years in the industry.

Thinking about playing through all the mainline numbered final fantasy games....

Everyone is going insane but I played some diablo 2 with my friend tonight and that was nice so I guess I'm getting through it lol

Mech jam begins tonight 🤖💪starts in 4 hours and I'm getting my sleep schedule changed for night shift job, I'll have a few days before that starts where I need to keep busy, good timing for me at least. Still trying to decide what to make though lol, maybe something turn based? 🤔

Updating profile picture to manifest going back to Croatia (and also I would like a cannon)

I'm gonna try to make something for mech jam this week, need to get myself out of this spiral. Also starting the new job next week, not a good one by any means lol but it's something to get a little money coming in. Blehhh.

Things are really bad right now. I know I keep saying this but I just need a lucky break here at some point, feels like everything is falling apart and idk what to do anymore.

While I’m not in this Steam Next Fest, I’m in the next best thing — depression!

It's my birthday and I think it's time to start a new project