Melodie ^-^

Melodie ^-^

@mel0cious.bsky.social

idfk at this point. some 22yo gay autistic coder gamer musician transfem enby girlfailure I guess. (she/fae) online I exist mostly in SMW speedrun spaces. im very autistic about that game. LINKS: https://www.mel0cious.neocities.org Opinions are my own.

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Melodie ^-^
@mel0cious.bsky.social

yea.... so i have a gf now! somehow scored a really nerdy and cute but shy girl i hit up because she said she modded games like l4d2, payday 2, and midnight club. now im taking her to a show on Saturday and showing her smw romhacks! 🫪

Melodie ^-^
@mel0cious.bsky.social

idk i still consider myself bi and not lesbian and still feel weird calling myself a lesbian but I think it's a lesbian/sapphic relationship which is epic girls kissing

Melodie ^-^
@mel0cious.bsky.social

i have a Halloween date coming up with a girl ive been vibing heavily with and texting for hours upon hours daily :333333333333 can Saturday please be here already!!!!!!!!!

Melodie ^-^
@mel0cious.bsky.social

tbh, my past few situationships/relationships have been mostly sexual. this time I feel is much more romantic in nature. I still want to take things a little bit slow, but I'm really excited!!! she's so cute and pretty and we've been able to just talk and nerd out non stop these past few days

Melodie ^-^
@mel0cious.bsky.social

this is the first person I felt romantic interest in whom I actually was able to express my true feelings to, and I'm so glad it paid off!!! the future seems less bad now.

Melodie ^-^
@mel0cious.bsky.social

relistening to the full blurryface saga* *minus the mid album that is scaled and icy. i tried listening to that a while ago. i just couldn't. it's mid. Trench and Clancy are peak tho

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sadie | looking for gigs
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It’s not ideal that AI as a term is meaningless and confusing, but being ignorant of the way something operates does not make a good position to fight against ! I will always advocate for knowing the enemy

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Super Mario World
@smwcommunity.bsky.social

We wanted to give an update now that SRC has updated their Terms of Use again. We are going to take all the run submissions currently in the queue and resubmit them on the runners' behalf so that they are under the new Terms. If you receive a notification that your run was rejected, this is why.

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@mel0cious.bsky.social

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Melodie ^-^
@mel0cious.bsky.social

i am fully aware that i am doing this to myself. i am the one trying to go for a cybersecurity cert where i need to hack. going into a field where i need to excert all my brainpower. i am aware that is my fault. I just want a break from it.

Melodie ^-^
@mel0cious.bsky.social

I am aware that I am the one who doesn't want a relationship with anyone because I want to get out of NJ first and i'm too scared to start one knowing i don't want to stay here. I frankly am scared of getting close to someone then hurting them by leaving, although there may be someone on my radar rn

Melodie ^-^
@mel0cious.bsky.social

cant wait til im done with shit so i can give my mind a rest. my mind is constantly being put to work this week, which is fine, but i really just want to let my brain be quiet, but i can't do that when i have a ton of shit i need to do that requires me to actually use my brain

Melodie ^-^
@mel0cious.bsky.social

really wish i could be in a position where i could feel safe and loved and and i didn't have to think and i could just lie down and cuddle with someone, but unfortunately that is not reality for i am none of those things. well, i am physically safe rn, and i shouldn't take that for granted.

Melodie ^-^
@mel0cious.bsky.social

ever see takes on bluesky that you flat out disagree with but you worry if you say anything people are gonna vilify you? i saw a few things on my feed last night that i really disagreed with, with nuance that probably would get lost on a bsky post, but i fear if i say my thoughts ill get shunned :(

Melodie ^-^
@mel0cious.bsky.social

am i cut out for hacking/pentesting? it's been my dream job since high school, but throughout college i didn't do much to really pursue it until the end. im currently taking the test, and i feel like i made no progress today. everything ive tried hasn't worked yet.

Melodie ^-^
@mel0cious.bsky.social

like two of the top results are actual videos but then they wrap it in a turd thumbnail another top result is from some AI bro who's like "wow AI discovered this vulnerability wow" I don't care how it was discovered I care that it gets fixed

Melodie ^-^
@mel0cious.bsky.social

i miss being in a band and having irl friends but also im procrastinating meeting someone irl who I've been talking with online from a school affiliated discord bc people are scary when they're not behind a screen and also yea lol. truly a dillema

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Melodie ^-^
@mel0cious.bsky.social

it's also just easier to interact with people when you've already met them and you have other people by your side but then idk im trying to put myself out there and not be a chud who's chronically online, but also the real world is very scary the internet feels safer even tho it's objectively not.

Melodie ^-^
@mel0cious.bsky.social

that's why computers are epic because the computer won't judge you. the computer just does math to represent things. i like my computer, when it's not spying on me to profit off of me. people in my computer are cool people outside my computer are scary

Melodie ^-^
@mel0cious.bsky.social

i miss being in a band and having irl friends but also im procrastinating meeting someone irl who I've been talking with online from a school affiliated discord bc people are scary when they're not behind a screen and also yea lol. truly a dillema

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Melodie ^-^
@mel0cious.bsky.social

i also just miss not staying inside all day and talking to people but also I'm scared of people until I get to know them and also I'm scared of making friends here bc once again I want to move away ugh wish social anxiety would just not exist.

Melodie ^-^
@mel0cious.bsky.social

it's a lot easier to interact with strangers who you'll never see again versus interacting with people you're trying to befriend. at least if you're awkward or weird strangers will forget. the people you want to be friends with won't.

Melodie ^-^
@mel0cious.bsky.social

i miss being in a band and having irl friends but also im procrastinating meeting someone irl who I've been talking with online from a school affiliated discord bc people are scary when they're not behind a screen and also yea lol. truly a dillema

Melodie ^-^
@mel0cious.bsky.social

I dreamed about playing a show. I really miss doing music stuff, but I also just haven't found the musical energy in me recently. also, I'm really hesitant to join a band again because I know I don't want to stay in NJ, I want to move elsewhere

Melodie ^-^
@mel0cious.bsky.social

watching back videos of the columbus show, holy shit they played screen and they changed some of the 2nd verse, makes it really topical right now.

Melodie ^-^
@mel0cious.bsky.social

great setlist. it's just not worth it to travel to ohio of all places for a show where tickets are super expensive. wish i was there. apparently it was being recorded professionally, i'd really love to experience it in a film sort of like more than we imagined.

Melodie ^-^
@mel0cious.bsky.social

screen change & what i saw of the hoty change made me cry. i have not listened to isle of flightless birds yet, but holy shit first full performance of it since 2014 is fucking epic (last time they performed it they omitted the ending)