Patrick

Patrick

@noxton.bsky.social

Patrick | 26 | Gay (MLM) | Any Prns | 2D and 3D Artist | 18+ only | Proship DNI 🚫 | @Lukkisocks 🖤🩷 https://toyhou.se/Noxton

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Hi! I’m Patrick. I’m a 2D / 3D artist 🦈 I make low-poly VRC avatars! I’m super OC-centric so if that’s something you like you’ve come to the right place!

I remember seeing these chickens in person a few years ago and the first thing I said to my friend was ‘it’s literally Silco Arcane’ so I made a chicken inspired by him

I have friends, but I can’t function without them. But I don’t want to burden them. I’m coming to terms with the fact that I’m codependent because I have no safe space anywhere else.

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Been seeing a lot of people headcanon Yellow from Deltarune as having moral OCD and yeah, I can see some parallels to my own experiences. Definitely feel the excessive self-punishment for things people tell me “aren’t a big deal”, and just in general struggling with doing justice “the right way”.

Been so depressed for like 3-4 years straight that I’m having a ton of health issues that I just don’t care to look into anymore bc what’s the point if I want to die anyway

A friend came to me concerned for my wellbeing because of my self-destructive coping methods. One of these was self-inserting myself into incredibly toxic fictional relationships and trying to ‘fix’ the abusive person. Gee wonder what that sounds like.

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I see them on social media talking to friends. These friends have said ‘but they treat me well’. Abusers are still abusers no matter how nice they may treat you. ‘You were both young’ is not a fucking excuse and if I’m told that again I’m going to be mean as fuck about it.

If you aren’t willing to listen to my experience because they just so happened to be nice to YOU, I’m just not going to trust you. It hurts to say it but I can’t do this anymore. I’m killing myself slowly with how bad my mental health has declined. I just can’t do it anymore man.

A friend came to me concerned for my wellbeing because of my self-destructive coping methods. One of these was self-inserting myself into incredibly toxic fictional relationships and trying to ‘fix’ the abusive person. Gee wonder what that sounds like.

I never wanted to talk about my experience with abusive relationships because I know my ex used to stalk previous partners. But to be honest I don’t fucking care anymore. It took me a long ass time and a LOT of therapy to realise what was going on.

I made mistakes and I don’t deny it but every time I tried to call something out, all blame was deflected back onto me. Hurtful things were said that killed my confidence. You joked about cheating numerous times, joked about serious shit that triggered me (and you knew that), the list goes ON.

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A compilation of my favourite VRC models I made. I end up hating a lot of my work but these ones are without a doubt my magnum opus.

‘You’re transphobic if you refer to Jax with he/him’ okay but Gooseworx literally doesn’t care about Jax’s pronouns and have we considered that transfems / transwomen can use he/him pronouns or are you all still stuck in a little boring binary box?

I fucking hate this binary ‘pronouns = gender’ enforcement. If it wasn’t the blatant nonbinary erasure, it’s also the fact you’re willing to ignore the words of a trans woman about her own character. You’re not ‘woke’, you’re just annoying.

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oh yeah, in terms of good news- I haven't seen anyone talking about this??? In short- worst case scenario of 4C warming by 2100 is no longer possible, new worst-case is 2.8C now DOES NOT MEAN we just relax- the only way we got here is through hard work- but it means THE HARD WORK IS WORKING

Take one look at SHTWT and EDTWT. Communities dominated by mentally unwell children. Dangerous TikTok trends that have caused irreversible damage. Pedophiles having easy access to their social media platforms.

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Nothing is more depressing than watching young artists give other young artists advice like “only use one colour palette in everything you do to have a more recognizable brand” and “draw everything with a target audience in mind”

A compilation of my favourite VRC models I made. I end up hating a lot of my work but these ones are without a doubt my magnum opus.

And of course my favourite commissioned pieces. One of them is old so I could absolutely do better now but I’m still impressed considering I was still learning!

Every time I doubt myself as a system I remember that I was diagnosed with a dissociative disorder + severe OCD years ago. Even if I didn’t realise I had alters back then, it all makes sense now. I fall into the trap of portraying myself the way others want to see me.

People don’t want to believe alters exist, so I also deny them the right to exist for my own safety and theirs. Some alters are ‘cringy’, so people don’t take them seriously. I wish this disorder wasn’t so misunderstood and stigmatised, it would be nice to let myself exist without judgement.

I like that Bluesky isn’t an ‘active’ platform because it feels like people who use it actually have lives outside of social media and purposefully disengage in the chronically online idiocy that plagues the likes of Twitter, Instagram and TikTok.

I remember being terrified of the idea of asexuality years ago because I thought sex was fundamental to having a lasting relationship based on societal norms. And I haven’t had the best experience with it in general.

Every time someone wanted smth sexual from me I just didn’t care or take it seriously which lead to resentment. I still don’t. I literally don’t need much at all in a relationship except for the basics. I don’t need much at all except for loyalty or light affection, really.