she/it, 21 y/o
catgirl of the void
mentally and physically ill which is why i still use tumblr
host of the CRINGE collective
strawpage: https://patchymoon.straw.page
its kinda depressing when i realize that i cant keep any sort of relationship because im so used to having to move on quickly. i wish i could have a life long friendship but i dont think that was ever truly meant to be
i dont think i have an attachment disorder or anything like that because i had an ok relationship with my parents growing up but at the same time it feels like the relationship i have with them is the only worthwhile one ive ever had with someone in my life
its kinda depressing when i realize that i cant keep any sort of relationship because im so used to having to move on quickly. i wish i could have a life long friendship but i dont think that was ever truly meant to be
and that ends up completely breaking the relationship because i get too attached until they have to forcefully remove themselves from the grasp i didnt know i was holding
its kinda depressing when i realize that i cant keep any sort of relationship because im so used to having to move on quickly. i wish i could have a life long friendship but i dont think that was ever truly meant to be
when you constantly have the only peers you connect with not sharing classes with you etc by the next year it really fucks with you on a structural level. often times i move on but i occasionally feel as though i truly click with someone and i end up becoming dependant on the high they give me
weird alien creature ive had in my mind for a while to represent my depersonalization/derealization episodes and my autism making me feel like an alien trying to replicate human behavior. something something whole lotta deep shit
my life is too short and i will simply stop existing when i die. i want to believe in an afterlife but i dont think its truly believing if i know that im just investing in it to feel less terrified about my mortality
ive stared at death's gaze so many times, ive seen what happens afterwards and its just nothing. i dont want to stop thinking, i want to become something new
weird alien creature ive had in my mind for a while to represent my depersonalization/derealization episodes and my autism making me feel like an alien trying to replicate human behavior. something something whole lotta deep shit
idk ive been feeling very detatched from myself lately. maybe its just that ive become aware of the full extent of my issues and ive been really existential as a result
Seems like EoSD:NC is using AI image generation without disclosing it on Steam!
As a reminder, the 4 on the clock should be IV or IIII, not IIV, the subdivisions between the numbers are wrong also.
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going to have to explain to my therapist that the reason why i cant think straight is because i spent my night drawing a woman who became fury incarnate after her son was killed