Teddy

Teddy

@potsandpanic.bsky.social

Counselor with hEDS, MCAS, and POTS 🩷💜💙 Survivor of the worst era of Provo Twitter She/her

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New church experience unlocked: my bishop is harassing me and my husband because I am chronically ill and majorly struggle to attend church meetings! He doesn’t seem to care that I have explained I have the life quality of someone with end stage renal disease 🥰 #lds #chronicallyill

I turned on Jack Black’s “Peaches” in the car today and turned it all the way up while singing it very aggressively and my husband stared at me like he’d lost the will to live

I have a client who BEYOND stresses me out due to recent events and they scheduled an emergency session for tomorrow and now I don’t wanna go to work 😅 (Note: I’m working through this with my clinical supervisor and my personal counselor, not just ignoring the problem, lol)

I know I’m not doing well when I start panicking when I open a book from Libby because I don’t think I’ll be able to finish it in the days left on the rental… like, I can literally just renew it or put it on hold again? It’s fine???

Today my dentist asked me if I have a connective tissue disorder. MY DENTIST. My dentist figured it out just from looking at my gums and my doctors—who get much more than that—took ELEVEN FUCKING YEARS. Incredible. #hEDS

Fun fact: my connective tissue surrounding my bladder has become really weak resulting in a tipped bladder, making me feel like I have a UTI all the time and giving the urinary continence level of a mother of 4 🙃 #hEDS

I got yelled at by the parent of a client for enforcing our late cancel fee, today. They’re mad because “they’re a minor, they didn’t understand!” But, like, the parents signed the agreement. They knew 🙃

So, last night I told my mom that my husband thinks I’m #ADHD. And she just stared at me and said, “you are??? Do you not remember getting assessed in jr high?” Um????? No???????? I ADHDed so hard I forgot I got a diagnosis

I got a positive pregnancy test 2 days ago. I #miscarried today. It’s technically a #chemicalpregnancy so I just have to wait it out. I didn’t even want to be pregnant, but this is SO HARD. The physical and emotional pain are really something 😕

Somehow I convince myself I am not allergic to coconut every 6 months or so only to be RUDELY awakened by the fact that I am when I try a sip of someone’s yummy smoothie or boba drink ☹️

I am lying on the floor panicking because I cannot give myself this shot. You’d think that when your entire life is blood draws, IVs, and shots you’d be used to it, but having to give it to yourself really changes the game 🙃

It was worse! I dissociated so hard my husband couldn’t get my attention :) I had to use EMDR to process it in therapy :)

Teddy@potsandpanic.bsky.social

I just spent an hour panicking and occasionally crying as I tried to convince myself to self-administer my #Xolair shot. It was over in 5 seconds. It stopped hurting within 30 seconds. I wasted a whole hour anticipating 35 seconds of pain. Will I still panic next time? Probably.

I just spent an hour panicking and occasionally crying as I tried to convince myself to self-administer my #Xolair shot. It was over in 5 seconds. It stopped hurting within 30 seconds. I wasted a whole hour anticipating 35 seconds of pain. Will I still panic next time? Probably.

Looking to connect with other #therapists who are struggling with the new Tr*mp administration. I live in a VERY rural area and its hard to find people to share with and find support in #mentalhealthcounselor #lpc #lcpc #lcsw #lmsw #lmft

#southeasternidaho / #canadian / #coldweather friends: any advice for how to keep my skin from cracking and bleeding when we’re in the negatives??? I thought wearing gloves outdoors would be enough but it absolutely isn’t. TIA. Signed, Someone who has never lived where it got below 0*F before

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I think it is important for freedom of assembly to apply to the places where people assemble.

Ragnarok Lobster@eclecticbrotha1.bsky.social

I miss the days when people didn't consider having a social media account a first amendment right. Funny how attitudes changed when people discovered they could monetize these things innit

Rex is the goodest boy and has the sweetest heart. Please consider helping his mom and dad (some of my favorite humans) pay for his medicine so he can keep being the light and love he is♥️ #petsinneed #vetbills #catinneed gofund.me/84e8ffd6

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TW: DV People are often surprised to learn that me leaving my abusive ex-husband was a spur of the moment decision. My then-husband left to go run errands and I had the thought that if I didn’t leave I’d end up dead. So I packed up and was out within 4 hours.

TW: #DV, murder, suicide I found out over a year later from a (ex)friend of my ex-husband that he had been planning to kill me and make my murder look like a suicide. That spur of the moment decision *literally* saved my life #domesticviolence #domesticviolenceawareness

Yesterday I cut my fingers (resulting in stitches) while cutting an onion Today I had a panic attack when my husband cut one for me and then again upon undoing the dressing to clean my wound. I guess this is a reminder that even the “little” things can be a trauma and counselors are not immune 😅

Just had a lovely breakdown to my husband about how I’m trapped in my apartment and don’t know anybody here… Anyone here in #Rexburg and wanna make new friends? 😅

I have the stomach flu. I also have 3 CDAs and 5 treatment plans to write (for which I will not be paid), as well as an unpaid, mandatory 8 hour training and subsequent test to complete. I’m going to riot. #therapistproblems

I think it should be a crime that, as a #counselor with a master’s-level education, I make 80% of my “hourly rate” ($35) for a 45-minute #counseling session. My only other option is to work the entire hour and not give myself time to do the notes, leading to hrs of #unpaidlabor doing them at home

This means that even with a 40 client #caseload (which is HUGE), I am only being paid for 32 hours of work. This does not include the HOURS of #unpaidwork that go into completing #insurance paperwork… and it only amounts to $1,120/week, putting me below the #medianincome in my area.

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