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@roachedtea.bsky.social

The sound keeps spinning on, and I find it beautiful. 　banner by @4syuP (twt) from song "Infinite Zero"

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@roachedtea.bsky.social

fucked up sleep wched from thesis + mystery lung illness + carpal tunnel + hyperacidity and anxiety mixture (DEBUFF, PERMANENT) + fucked up my leg from falling down stairs qt undertale symphony (NEW!)

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i'm past this but last time i had to take this medicine (earlier this year) i started having a moral crisis about having a crush on someone and whether i should kms over it (which wasn't even an actual crush btw, it was part of the psychosis-)

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heads up in advance if i start saying some bullshit in public: they put me on the evil psychosis-inducing cough medicine again so I'm honestly hoping to god nothing happens

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i think i'm allowed to laugh at my own expense cuz bro i was literally making arguments with MYSELF that having a crush on someone was non-consensual and therefore i should Die Immediately

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heads up in advance if i start saying some bullshit in public: they put me on the evil psychosis-inducing cough medicine again so I'm honestly hoping to god nothing happens

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oh no the fish food i dropped in the tank started to mold 😭 i'll clean it out tomorrow but i hope the pods are chowing down on the mold (?????????)

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i also got isopods for my sibling but i'm the main caretaker of em

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wren!
@tropical-rouge.bsky.social

project sekai fans comparing every single new card where a character looks mildly distressed to mizu5 is going to be my villain origin story i swear 😭

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*yes i know some of these are EP or compilations but shhhhh i like WAY more than the ones i listed but these are just ones i've been listening to as of recent :) i could defo make a bigger one at some point

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i could probably do a 20x20 if i included non-vocaloid LOL. but it'd still be predominantly vocaloid because that's all. i listen to.

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rice
@ricedeity.online

Hey did you guys know chis-a is completely free including her english voicebank. did you guys know you can just download voisona and chis-a will be on your computer in like 5 minutes YES YOU IM TALKING TO YOU 🫵 YOU CAN GET CHIS-A RIGHT NOW SHE CAN BE ON YOUR COMPUTER RIGHT NOW voisona.com/song/

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@roachedtea.bsky.social

i also got isopods for my sibling but i'm the main caretaker of em

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"thought about" -- I DID? i got beetle larvae. it's actually been helping a lot with staying Aware and just checking up on their humidity sensors has been doing wonders for the dissociation issues i also got them for cheap :) no financial dips here (THANK GOD)

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this year has genuinely been the most non-productive one i've ever had. mostly because i'm finishing up my thesis, but at the same time, i got hit with bullshit-after-bullshit that it's been extremely difficult

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i thought about getting a pet i need to check on weekly to make up for this, something low-maintenance enough where i can at least wake my brain up and do stuff without having to tune back out. but the dissociation has gotten ridiculously bad lmfao

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"thought about" -- I DID? i got beetle larvae. it's actually been helping a lot with staying Aware and just checking up on their humidity sensors has been doing wonders for the dissociation issues i also got them for cheap :) no financial dips here (THANK GOD)

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@roachedtea.bsky.social

this year has genuinely been the most non-productive one i've ever had. mostly because i'm finishing up my thesis, but at the same time, i got hit with bullshit-after-bullshit that it's been extremely difficult

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of course, because of said bullshit, i've been in-and-out of dissociative episodes that make me extremely unaware of how much time passes- i've bad some comms that have been on the burner for. extremely long. disgustingly long. i thank everyone for their patience. but holy fuck i'm so sorry

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@jintuszirto.bsky.social

who up tasting the rain uh hah hah please listen to ippo.tsk they make great music here is some art i made a while ago while listening to their song

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basto
@bastobaso.bsky.social

as of last night im officially homeless again. but if i wasnt, i wouldnt have been at the library today, so i wouldnt have been able to fix their old printer for them. you have to find the silver linings of these things. you have to.

basto@bastobaso.bsky.social

i figured it was only a matter of time before ai took my job. i got the notice last week if my work has ever given you at least a couple bucks' worth of enjoyment, i'd appreciate a bit of support ko-fi.com/basto

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situation so bad you are genuinely surprised at yourself to decide to continue living

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i'm losing my goddamn marbles i'm going to disappear from the internet dawg

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i tell my life story to everyone. truly the most damning comment i got from a friend (psych major) was "i am extremely surprised you havent killed yourself yet because holy fuck"

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anyone magically rich want to give me a place to stay and money to place a restraining order man. i hate this. i hate keeping quiet about my life but i know its not rlly smth i should speak openly about either

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i've been shocked by live wire. i've been hit by motorcycles twice and a car once (thankfully all with minor abrasions only). i've sprained my ankle so often that i've invested in a SECOND ankle brace from how often it happens. ((and i still have enough pride to never ask anyone to drive me-

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sorry for another post going "delaying projects/comms again", some serious stuff is happening atm which i'd rather not get into specifics for. it's been eating at my head for a few days but i'll try my best to get to everything before the end of the month. thanks

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basto
@bastobaso.bsky.social

hate to have to re-up this so soon but i live in the usa and no job means no health insurance. my painkillers alone cost $250/month without. please

basto@bastobaso.bsky.social

i figured it was only a matter of time before ai took my job. i got the notice last week if my work has ever given you at least a couple bucks' worth of enjoyment, i'd appreciate a bit of support ko-fi.com/basto

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In all honesty though my head's been making me feel like doodoo garbage. Not for any particular reason I just have fucked up neurons in my tiny brane