Violet Grumble

Broken clocks and all that.

Really need to work on overcoming my crippling perfectionism. It is paralysing. I feel like maybe I just need to try and connect my feelings of self esteem and validation with stuff that isn’t my productive and creative output.

The danger of bingeing Game Changer and Make Some Noise is that I now have the desire to get crazy good at improv to have the slimmest chance to one day work at dropout or become friends with any of the cast 🤣🤣😅😆

I feel seen

Good morning bluesky! Try not to mind my hair, it’s been so unmanageable lately 😭

Apex Legends hands down has the most satisfying gameplay out of any Battle Royale. It has awesome lore, cool characters, great art style, music and atmosphere. And yet it has a seriously dwindling player base because EA and Respawn have been comically bad at managing the game. It’s fucking tragic

Duskmourne felt way easier to draft a good deck in. With foundations I feel like I find my lane, and then the cards and colors I want are still evaporating. Maybe it’s just because everyone else is still unsure about what to take, but damn it’s been rough.

Went to the dentist for the first time in years (because hadn’t found a covid safe dentist). Turns out I’ve been overbrushing because I’ve been afraid if needing to go to the dentist and it’s caused some gum recession on a couple of teeth 🙃 would have just preferred to get cavities tbh. 😢

Difference between this post on threads and here is wild. Threads seems to have a much bigger algorithmic focus on rage/antagonistic engagement because it wasn’t long before the right wing dickheads were all over this one.

Imagine being a billionaire and having all the money and time in the world, able to afford michelin star in home chefs and doctors and nutritionists and personal trainers. And with all that, still looking like Elon Musk. Would never be me 🤣🤣🤣

Big sky booms. Much loud. Very scare.

please give pedro pascal a swashbuckler movie my man was grown in a lab specifically to wear a hat with a feather on it and go "a-HA" and it is a shame on the world that we deny him that

This letterboxd review was one of the first things to make me properly laugh since the election. Because, is it even wrong? 🤣😂🤣

Should I make a short form series on my thoughts around how the right is way better positioned to win the modern information war as a function of the interplay between our hidden value functions and the underlying incentives of capitalism? Would need scripting first though, or it’d be incoherent 🙃

So angry for my trans friends, my journalist and scientist friends, my immigrant friends, my Black and Hispanic friends… But this afternoon I’m mostly angry for my disabled cousin, who is so upset that America voted for someone who wants people like her to just die

At least there’ll be never ending content for r/LeopardsAteMyFace I guess.

❤️💙❕

I wanted to be productive today. Alas, the US has deemed it not to be.

Threads feels like the new twitter, with how many smug idiotic maga gits are delusional over there right now.

And my old job wondered why I didn’t want to move to Chicago with them.

Normalcy bias is a bitch I guess. We truly live in the darkest timeline. I want off Mr Bones wild ride.

It’s also because the larger counties usually vote more blue, but also take longer to count. youtu.be/KXQ1ieFRr0o?...

Sleep ruined, but at least was able to get what I wanted. What a shitshow though.

Staying up til 3am to hopefully nab some of the marvel secret lairs. If I’ve ruined a night of sleep and can’t get them because of stock/site issues I’m gonna be livid. In before secret lairs are dumb and terrible for the consumer, I’m aware I shouldn’t buy them. This is the first time I want to 😭

I really hope I can make it in solo game dev, because the longer I go without getting a normal job the more impossible it feels it will be to not only get one, but also tolerate it.

Wish I had a tape drive to start backing up all the stuff on the internet that I care about, because I’m so worried it will very quickly just evaporate. Unfortunately tape drives are $$$$$$

Muscle Hunter Wilds

Spent time yesterday getting my head around these awesome ocean waves shaders and wrote a compute shader that extracts the wave height information so it can be used for buoyancy calculations. The current buoyancy is just for sanity checking, and needs refinement but yay! youtu.be/olCr-f8Q10c?...

Live now for my morning walk 😊 come say hi! twitch.tv/violetgrumbl...

If you want to really, truly have moral choices in video games, forget "evil - good" options. What you're REALLY looking for is "convenient - inconvenient" options. Seriously, the #1 most common test of morality is that little bit of extra effort required, and that's what will actually test people

:watching them at the time: "Oh please, the Old Republic falls *that* quickly to *that* transparently a phony?" :early 2017: "Ah shit."

Throwback to the start of the year when I was actively doing my best to improve and would occasionally pop off. Lately trying to spend more of my time creating so Valorant has taken a back seat for less committal games like Call of Duty and shorter streams. Don’t be afraid to say hi when I’m live!

Going live on twitch to get my morning steps in! So come say hi! It’s been a while since I’ve streamed, so still working out the kinks with OBS twitch.tv/violetgrumble

Finally set my office space up to work with my walking pad and I’m doing insane steps every. So far I’ve only been playing the new call of duty while walking and I expected it to reduce my performance, but the impact has been marginal after the initial adjustment. Stepping on noobs while stepping.