Twix Destroyer

Twix Destroyer

@fvckwithfire.bsky.social

Judoka/bjj practioner, video game enjoyer. Metal and hardcore kid at heart. Nazi punks fuck off.

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Still so mad all the time despite having really awesome people in my life, going to therapy, starting a new med, working out etc. I think it is just a natural reaction to everything going on and everything I have been through. Not much I can do, just try to ride the wave.

If you make a blt you gotta salt and pepper the absolute fuck out of those tomatoes and drizzle em with olive oil, let em sit for like 10 minutes before you build da sandwich. Trust me!

I am thinking about the Raven Chacon/Igor Cavalera noise set and the dread it filled me with. I can see how it had to be felt in the moment. Not something I would want to listen to on record, but a powerful experience.

Teaching people has got me more motivated to train, but I will probably be going to some other places around here for that, I need a change in routine. I have been stagnating because I don't have other bigger people to roll with

Still angry about this conversation I had with this training partner, actually considering leaving the school over it. I realized that I could be a brown belt here if I played the game, but it doesn't really matter to me if I have to share a space with assholes and fascist sympathizers.

Truthfully a lot of the culture around bjj over these last few years has made me fall out of love with the art. Even if there are still people I have a lot of respect for like my original and current coaches, Marcelo Garcia etc

On the flip side, there is always judo. I realized that I do still love training and teaching, I just need more of a community around these things like I initially had. That is what kept me going, not being able to be tough. It was community and having fun.

The class went well! Some folks were a little reluctant at first, but everyone had fun. The place looks like a street fighter stage.

Twix Destroyer@fvckwithfire.bsky.social

Gonna teach some queer folks how to grapple on the floor of a DIY hardcore venue tomorrow.

Maga asshole from BJJ that I have been trying to stay civil and engage in conversations with talked shit about how I handled the circumstances of my mom passing in an argument. This is after I took time to teach this guy judo on multiple occasions. These people have no redeeming qualities.

Specifically this dude says I "chose my job over family" because I was forced to work mandatory overtime the week my mom died and it's not anyone else's problem, this was during a conversation about how no one should have to work more than one job for 40 hours a week. He has three jobs.

Gonna try not to let one person that pisses me off ruin training for me, but it sucks ass that no matter where you go in combat sports spaces you're gonna deal with these assholes in some capacity.

I was naive to think I could ever reason with these people, just because I have had past relationships/shared spaces with them in bjj. They are a complete waste of time and energy, there is absolutely nothing to gain by being civil with them. I am glad I fully understand this now.

This is my fav cheap banger fragrance. Smells like whiskey+leather, caramel and cardamom. I am actually happy it is fall so I can wear it. Really smooth and not at all cloying. Just a warm hug.