psychic timetrav'l'r [Alawen]

I know it must be clear that I have no filter going out. I am telling you that I also have no filter coming in. Everything takes deep, improbable root immediately like it's the vital key to an escape room puzzle box I'm trapped in all my life

please kill me. please end my life. i am lonely. i am in pain. i am ignored. i am denied. please kill me. i am tired. i am exhausted. please kill me. please end my life. i am lonely. i am in pain. i am ignored. i am denied. please kill me. i am tired. i am exhausted. please end my life. i am so done

kikiala.bandcamp.com/album/synago...

demonstrating the bettering of my little font wrapper function. it is quite normal

ALT: It's a drawing of a majestic feminine warrior with dragon parts behind her ear and along her neckline, before her is a smaller separate doodle of a dragon neck-up as well as a close-up of the eye of one. There is writing and diagramming nearby. On the opposite page of the sketchbook is writing.

A handful of days ago, I posted that the sun had decided to get interesting again. Please add the word "very" to that assessment. #astronomy #astrophotography #skying

#Waxing #Gibbous #Moon Date: 2026 03 27 Time: 18:44:57 UTC Altitude: 55° 05' Distance: 371 191 km Phase: 72% Nikon Z8 iOptron Rumak 150 Exposure: f/12, 1/60s, ISO-100 Focal Length: 1800 mm #astronomy #astrophotography #craters #jet #aeroplane #airplane

I like her shifting

This is an essay I wrote tonight about nature connectivity and nature-disconnected false concepts like money and violence. One of two posts for it all! I had a few words tonight, haha.

honestly sickest concept i ever did. RIP

i thought the owlboy pengi thing was cute so i started work on a mini for it. then i got depressed lmao

very old sketch in my first painting app i coded in c it was the most ergonomic damn painting app ever

ini from a best-effort encyclopedia made by humans. The caption is "Biblically accurate. Alt: A zoomed in photo of broccolini from a best-effort encyclopedia made by humans. The caption is "Biblically accurate. Alt: A zoomed in photo of broccolini from a best-effort encyclopedia made by humans. The

Biblically accurate. Alt: A zoomed in photo of broccolini from a best-effort encyclopedia made by humans. The caption is "Biblically accurate. Alt: A zoomed in photo of broccolini from a best-effort encyclopedia made by humans. The caption is "Biblically accurate. Alt: A zoomed in photo of broccol

Reedit of my Rosettte Nebula taken last February: Using Veralux HyperMetric Stretch in Siril 1.4 really helps me bringing out more contrast. 🔭 TSAPO72F6 📷 Player One Ares-C pro, SV220 filter ⌛ 2h@120s 💻 Siril, GraXpert, darktable #astrophotography #photography

Moon over Ullswater

Messier 33 Triangulum Galaxy from August, initially discarded as subs washed out due to Moon and high cloud but decided to give the new #PixInsight MultiscaleAdaptiveStretch a go ASI2600MCP, SW100ED, 18x180s #astrophotography telescopius.com/pictures/vie...

#IC443 #supernova remnant in Gemini. Image from last week and taken with #VixenTelescopes SD115II at f/7.7 and #ZWO ASI2600MC camera. Exposed for 72 x 300s. #astronomy #astrophotography #space #deepsky Original image on www.flickr.com/photos/dodi-...

My first sun/moon pair of 2026! The moon was 97% illuminated last night and then sun was captured this morning as it peeked up over my house. Moon: buff.ly/2uiGNHo Sun: buff.ly/1OSCm4T #astrophotography #newyear #sun #moon #sunspots #aurora #solarsystem #touptek #skywatcherUSA

Crisp night for this big bright moon illuminating the snow-dusted landscape this evening Vermont. #astrophoto #moon #lunar #vermont

The Silver Sliver or Outer Limits Galaxy, NGC 891, about 30 million light years away. This is what our galaxy would look like from edge on. #astrophotography #seestar #ngc891

I saw some footage of the respectful reburial of ancestral remains that were disturbed in a geological survey. I found it heartening - "No one has the right to disturb the remains of our people" Thank you.

I listened to the news today, heartbreaking tragedies abound, grats to Mamdani I guess, I hope for further developments and the safety of any who endure

archive.org/details/kiki... Audio is up! Bass cut is my habit: still searching for my metalhead. The album release will have more to it. Enjoy for now (if it's your thing, kinda niche ambient metal drone noise guitar but hey)

As much as I like to indict idiots who are lustful and greedy, they did win. I can't escape. I have seemingly lost. But I have faith, I became aware of the fact this is a recording at least, and know that I was found in the wreckage of time's erasure. Thank you those who survived the latent collapse

Two guitar tracks handled weird to make a new drone with more of a forward momentum and evolving soundscape than usual (image: photo of analyzed audio output, showing a spectrograph and other audio meters, along with a majority of green "looks good!" checks for every platform except EBU R128)

Nice chance to practice "pick your battles" and all the other methods of self-respect, health, and dignity preservation

are you telling me people can have a stable identity and not be constantly treading water and fending off non-stop disparagement amid physical and psychological attacks while also healing from lifelong injuries that keep being added to and also trying to understand so hard all the time full manually

I aspire to teach the world about video compression

someone treated me like a human and i ate food

I want to be treated like a human. I'm just a person out here. I don't know what happened.

Every single post I make is stalked by bots here now. There are new accounts every minute named Julie, supposedly someone doing work online, and I can't even block or stop it. They keep appearing.

I want to be rescued. Instead I am blamed and tortured for all time. I want to live a simple, peaceful life of artmaking. Instead it's pure silence. Why.

I just want to live my normal life. I know local victims of the war hatred burns is something no one seems to care about. I am so tired of being blamed for what I endure. I hold the keys to light inside my heart. And shadow does not burn me. It's only by machine that I can be extinguished like this.

I miss my friends. I miss being able to find work.