epinel

epinel

@myosot.is

Audiophile wanderer anomaly girl ~ Love tripped out hypnotic rhythms Music: soundcloud.com/ephnel-sounds Discord: @myosot.is

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I'm at a risk of getting deported from the country I thought it's my home. Despite living here for almost 10 years since I was young, I just grew up like ordinary British people, going to state school and then sixth form, now working full time here in London.

I don't really have any ties left in Korea, I basically have my whole professional and private life here. I've been fighting with Home Office for years since they denied my settled status application for whatever bullshit reason, and genuinely losing all hope recently.

I apologise for being quite strange recently, I just can't process this situation and I really have no idea what to do to prevent it. My worst nightmare is living in that society again as a person who adapted completely different culture which likely won't be tolerated easily there.

Going on little holiday, a mile away from my home, subletting my friend's place for free for taking care of her cat I don't need anything else but a quiet home without flatmates and a cat

Going off the grid for a while probably, need to sort myself out as well as my life for now. Need a room to breathe. See you all when things get better!

Recently have been thinking about just going off the internet completely, or at least just not having a phone at all. Of course I'm a part of Gen Z and internet has been an essential part of my life since 2012 or something. But it started getting really bad on my mental health.

All the shits from SNS, shortening attention span, AI taking over the entire internet etc... It'll only get worse in the near future and I'm not sure if I even want to be part of this kind of shitshow anymore.

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I've been screaming at people to not do this. If you harass the workers on the games/platforms you love you deserve to have your computer taken from you. Fucking Shame on you! Seriously, you're bullying the cooks in the kitchen doing their best when you should be mad at the owner

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Logging off bsky until people stop setting themselves on fire and grandposting like crazy ! Some of y'all really need to cool down and think a realistic way before wasting your emotion and energy for nothing !

Bartending horror season is here! 3 months of suffering, crying, and also some massive tip money ahead

Used to have a problem with alcohol combined with depression years ago, and embarrassed myself badly enough at a friend gathering one day. Lost a lot of friends, including some of the best ones. Really want to own up my mistake and want to reconnect with them but don't know what's stopping me.

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Sometimes I wonder, will I ever be normal like other people? Can I be 'fixed'? Anxiety is getting worse every single month and day, maybe due to the things I decided to bury and not own up, to avoid any stressful situation, which will backfire to me awfully eventually.

Rant done, really wanted to remove one of the things in my brain that has been bothering me a lot, and summarise it.

Used to have a problem with alcohol combined with depression years ago, and embarrassed myself badly enough at a friend gathering one day. Lost a lot of friends, including some of the best ones. Really want to own up my mistake and want to reconnect with them but don't know what's stopping me.

Luckily I don't have that problem anymore, actually I rarely even drink. That incident shocked me enough to reconsider my relationship with alcohol. The fact that I was blacked out the entire night so I can't remember almost anything scares me the most.

I do speak with most of the people now, but there's a gap between me and them I can't easily explain, and yet I'm still really scared to approach the ones I cherished the most back in the day. Maybe because I'm still not in the good place mentally as well, just while being sober.

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I have been learning how to make music for more than a year now I am putting out an EP next week [FBT001] first in a series of stuff i like

I do miss playing minecraft a lot, used to do some computational redstone thing and really enjoyed building actually workinf CPUs and various electrical components from scratch. Gotta do it again

I thought the concept of AI bots in the internet arguing with people is just an urban myth or something lol, shocking to actually witness

Going through some Massive Attack and other Bristol sound stuffs atm and it's been properly stirring up my head

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The sad thing about moving internationally during the school age is you end up not fully belonging to either of the country's cultures and societies; you become 'something in between' People here say I'm a forever Korean, and Korean people say I don't act like them

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soundcloud.comrefuge16092026Textural Being - You're So Amicable Sub Basics - Distraction HVL- Nonlinear Time (Re-Orched) Massive Attack - Dissolved Girl HVL - Teapot Limhi Slowfoam - Silk Song & Viridescence Biosphere - Chukhun
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Me and @maddiecar.bsky.social are bored and in a bit gloomy mood so here we go, ambient / downtempo pop up in 3 hours! Will try messing with Digitone and see how doing hybrid live set feels

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playing some live ambient at the end of the night for a small festival this weekend with some friendsss, I'm so excited 🐛💕

Ya found the quiz made for people in British Isles and now it sounds correct

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As a Korean British person I somehow got New York ??

As a Korean British person I somehow got New York ??

Clara@clara-is-wrong.bsky.social

Checks out lol Wonder what would have made me more Chicagoan? Tho I'm super influenced by my bf in Michigan, and they're close af