Sequaia

This is not a return to social media just yet, but I’ve just announced this on The Transmissions discord so I felt I should repeat it here: It is with much sadness that I’m announcing my departure from The Transmissions.

Due to significant personal issues I’ve not featured on the channel for a while, or even as a guest on other channels. It's taken months for me to make this decision but I can only make worthy contributions to this project from a place of stability, and I’ve been getting worse, not better.

Similar to the saying 'history is written by the winners' is the truth that narcissists control the narrative in abusive relationships. One thing a narcissist likes is the sound of their voice and their favourite subject is themselves, and how great they are.

A narcissist is vocal and builds an audience around them that isolates a victim. To the victim, everyone appears to be awed by the narc and to admit their own bad feelings or contradict the narc seems foolhardy or dangerous.

Similar to the saying 'history is written by the winners' is the truth that narcissists control the narrative in abusive relationships. One thing a narcissist likes is the sound of their voice and their favourite subject is themselves, and how great they are.

To acknowledge this sets a precedent for admitting there is a healthy exchange between the parties and this is not a trade the narc is interested in acknowledging. They need people beholden to them, but they will use language that suggests they are open to alternatives.

Similar to the saying 'history is written by the winners' is the truth that narcissists control the narrative in abusive relationships. One thing a narcissist likes is the sound of their voice and their favourite subject is themselves, and how great they are.

What is often overlooked is how victims are maligned, not by what is said about them, but by what is omitted and by the careful construction the narcissist builds about their own struggles and the constant reiteration of their great qualities, and what they do for you.

This is a beautifully written account of a tragic event, and I recommend it to all my writer friends. The subject meets at the crossroads of folklore and mental health, both of which are current obsessions for me. A small tangential🧵 inspired by it. 1/11

Understanding mental health and suicide in Williams time was not really a thing and whilst we think things are much better these days, narcissistic abuse is rife and victim blaming is a common occurrence. 10/11

This is a beautifully written account of a tragic event, and I recommend it to all my writer friends. The subject meets at the crossroads of folklore and mental health, both of which are current obsessions for me. A small tangential🧵 inspired by it. 1/11

Leaving my abuse trauma to one side, my low mental health is not because I'm a trans woman, it's because as a trans woman I have no place in society. If I were to tell a health worker I felt suicidal that would become the sole focus - medication, check ins, again even being sectioned. 8/11

This is a beautifully written account of a tragic event, and I recommend it to all my writer friends. The subject meets at the crossroads of folklore and mental health, both of which are current obsessions for me. A small tangential🧵 inspired by it. 1/11

I don't believe William's suicide was due to alcohol alone, the alcohol certainly wouldn't have helped and was likely the cause of 'loosening him up' and causing him to drop the mask that he would usually have worn. He started exhibiting that 'madness' of a victim. 6/11

This is a beautifully written account of a tragic event, and I recommend it to all my writer friends. The subject meets at the crossroads of folklore and mental health, both of which are current obsessions for me. A small tangential🧵 inspired by it. 1/11

Suicide and suicidal ideation among trans people is well documented, but talking about it has its own pitfalls. Whoever I've spoken to, whether its abuse hotlines, doctors, therapists etc. the first question is always 'have you had suicidal thoughts.' But how safe is it to answer that? 4/11

This is a beautifully written account of a tragic event, and I recommend it to all my writer friends. The subject meets at the crossroads of folklore and mental health, both of which are current obsessions for me. A small tangential🧵 inspired by it. 1/11

Over the course of the last year my personal situation has eroded my mental health and caused me to withdraw from performance and media work. When I haven't been dissociating I've fallen back on my passion for writing. 2/11