transmutrix

sometimes i see those youtubers like "i live in China's ghost city" and i'm like... dude if they would let me be really, really trans and internet-loud i would love that. maintained infrastructure with like 10 people in it sounds ideal to me. quiet hours at the super market all the time, sign me up.

other than taking walks and running errands i'm mostly a shut-in and have been for a long time. last Summer i went to the lake 3 times, was harassed twice of them, and never returned. drunk guys. i just wanted to swim. with the right people around, anywhere can become a corner.

sometimes i see those youtubers like "i live in China's ghost city" and i'm like... dude if they would let me be really, really trans and internet-loud i would love that. maintained infrastructure with like 10 people in it sounds ideal to me. quiet hours at the super market all the time, sign me up.

right now someone is trying to buy an unused, cheap commercial building near my town to build a mosque, and the racist spew from some of the people here is exactly like it was when i was in middle school in 2001. nothing will change for them. cable TV shines out of their eyes.

sometimes i see those youtubers like "i live in China's ghost city" and i'm like... dude if they would let me be really, really trans and internet-loud i would love that. maintained infrastructure with like 10 people in it sounds ideal to me. quiet hours at the super market all the time, sign me up.

if you, like me, care about gamefeel a lot, and you end up with a game where the player controller is like 5000+ lines and you hate working on it, just remember that it's the most important 5000 lines in the game, and it will be ok. hopefully. "e.e

this state is set and resets this timer, but then somewhere else i don't reset the timer, and was that _intentional_ which isn't reflected in a comment or easy to tell in a play test, or did i just _forget_ to reset the timer there? shit.

if you, like me, care about gamefeel a lot, and you end up with a game where the player controller is like 5000+ lines and you hate working on it, just remember that it's the most important 5000 lines in the game, and it will be ok. hopefully. "e.e

i don't wanna start anything, but it's weird for me how much merch around TADC treats jax's torment scene as lighthearted or zany. maybe that's my personal damage talking, but it's about the last thing i'd choose to immortalize in an art book page or vinyl figure

a lot of my favorite indie games to play and remember aren't the ones that were super-hits and made a drillion dollars. they're weird, they're experimental, they have some rough edges. maybe i put too much pressure on Wizwag to be a Professional Game For Steam Monies

"i _have_ to have 6-8 dungeons that are really hard for me to design in a way that the youtube pontificatori won't talk shit about and i _have_ to have more items than this even if i have no design reason to add more and i _have_ to make a toby fox level story or i'm screwed"

a lot of my favorite indie games to play and remember aren't the ones that were super-hits and made a drillion dollars. they're weird, they're experimental, they have some rough edges. maybe i put too much pressure on Wizwag to be a Professional Game For Steam Monies

even some games that are super duper derivative, like "tracing official artwork of a nintendo franchise" level of derivative, do something interesting or fun that you can learn from, particularly if the imitation is done in earnest rather than cynically ripping something off.

a lot of my favorite indie games to play and remember aren't the ones that were super-hits and made a drillion dollars. they're weird, they're experimental, they have some rough edges. maybe i put too much pressure on Wizwag to be a Professional Game For Steam Monies

maybe it would be more true to myself to let it be weird and imperfect, and not try to hold it to an "indies with millions of dollars" standard of polish when the parts closest to me are how movement feels, "i can't believe they thought of that" and the atmosphere of places

got an email from Romance of Men about some new swords they were adding to their catalogue, and in the middle of the email there's this butt-ugly AI video thumbnail from their official channel. =[